update *1

well yesterday i went to court,had to wait all morning 9.30am-12.10pm [noon] to be in the court room for just 5 mins!! the judge and childrens solicitor did have positive comments to make about me,saying that i must have done something right bringing my children up as they are lovely children and they are doing very well at school,the judge said that i clearly had the childrens best interests at heart as i am allowing them to stay with there foster carer,where they are settled and happy,no family members can take on the children,social services say i can not have my children back,my parenting assessment was very negative full of lies etc,so i have no choice but to let my children melissa and bailey stay in long term foster care,i am broken hearted but pray that one when they are older that they will come back to me and not blame me for the way things have happened,they are 10 and 13 at the moment,the next time i have to go to court is 16th oct,and hope that i can get more assess, i only see them once a month if i am lucky,the relationship has broken down with the children,sometimes they wont talk to me on the phone or see me,i have not seen my daugther melissa for 6 months,[bailey is my son} many blessings marianne xx