so i am here..again

it is a funny thing how u always come back to a certain place when sadness occurs...but here i sit doing something i dont think is right coming back because i need something,,some one o listen...some one to make me feel better,and to console me..so guess that makes me a hypocrite...last time i was here i had a husband now i don't..last time i was here i had a dog rescue..i still sort of do but lost my own fur baby three day's ago and it is making me feel sick to my stomach..i was the one who made the decision to allow him not to suffer any longer and now i have to live with my decision..and i am in a state of shock,,guilt and sadness and they are all equal....I am taking a much needed rest from animal rescue as simply put i need it..funny as it is with my failing health..and it is failing ..i worry more about my pet's then my self,,the human factor is one to be reckoned
with...i turned to prayer for my love loss of my 4 legged fur baby but have yet to pray for my self..guess like him.i would love to be released from my suffering..like my fur baby i to have good day's as well as many bad..and many mixed emotions...if had i put this much emotion into my marriage i might still have a marriage but i didn't miss it then and now see my self missing it occasionally....